Mail Order Drugs...Risperdal Lamictal, Ativan, Klonopin, Cogentin

Today we received in the mail, my wife's and I prescription drugs for the next 3 months. It cost me $150. That is not bad considering the drugs cost over $750 in real cost. Once again- thank the Lord that I have good health insurance and a drug card.

When I opened the huge mailing bag, it made me sick to see all the drugs and bottles contained within. If I didn't, (and wife wife didn't) really need these drugs to live a functioning life, I would have thrown them all away. It just looked disgusting to see all those pills. I can't believe we have to take all those.
In the bag: Risperdal, Lamictal, Ativan, Klonopin,and Cogentin. All in large bottles, which is stupid as most only had 90 small pills in each. What a waste of plastic.

My wife and I are very med compliant, we take all our drugs are prescribed. The best thing is that they all work. I could probably quit mine and survive and just go back to not sleeping and being in a mania and depressive state. However my wife really needs hers and would once again end up in the hospital pschy ward without them.

I guess its health through pharmacology ! I have no problem with that. Other than the fact it cost me $50 per month for drugs.

To all of you who are on my case for starting smoking again- THANKS. Not only does my wife yell at me about smoking now I have "cyber wives" yelling at me. I hope to try to quit smoking again here in the very near future, maybe in the next week or two. We'll see how it goes.

Don't feel like writing...

I've worked 76 hrs of overtime in approx 2 weeks. I'm tired, my mind is mush. I haven't fallen into a hypomanic state, but rather a depression. I simply am just tired, so maybe its just not depression.

I don't feel like blogging at all right now, so I won't......

Fell off the wagon

Well it happened. I feel off the no smoking wagon. I started smoking again. I'm just like that cartoon commerical with the guy that climbs the line and fall back again.
I'm ready to give it a try again as soon as I'm done working all this overtime at the end of the month.

Working Overtime...

Another Supervisor just went on sick leave for the next two to four weeks. That means I have to work 12-14hr days until he returns. The extra money will be nice, but AAARRRGGG.

This will give my Lamictal a run for its money. Hopefully I won't go into a mania from being too tired.

So far so good...

My endevour to quit smoking is coming along nicesly. The withdraws are still terrible but I think I can make it now. I just have to be careful at work when I'm around those who smoke.

I WANNA CIGARETTEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!....

I WANNA SMOKE ONE- JUST ONE- COME ON- JUST ONE WONT HURT- GIVE ME A SMOKE- I'LL QUIT NEXT WEEK OR MONTH...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhh!

This is whats going on in my mind. Everytime I want to smoke I find something to take away the pain.. .Been drinking alot of cranberry juice to try and flush out my system.
So far I've been hanging in there but it is my days off so I'm not around anyone that smokes. Monday will be the real test.

Quit Smoking...

I quit smoking today for the thousandth time. Hopefully I'll make it this time. I'm just not willing to pay for the increased cost and I better quit before I end up with cancer. Plus I won't have to listen to wife complain about me smoking anymore.
Now she won't have anything to yell at me about-LOL