Still addicted to Lorezapam.. and other mumblings

My first post in many months.....

I started to break my addiction to Ativan(lorezapam), but that only lasted a few days. I whimped out.
I know I'm addicted, my wife knows I'm addicted and my pdoc knows I'm addicted. I keep telling myself that I need to get off this stuff, but I don't. It must be my "addictive personality".

Other than this little problem, I am still doing very well overall. Since December we've been working "normal" hours at work. However, in March or April it will back to long hours again(12hrs each day). Now that I'm afternoon shift, my mood patterns are pretty stable. I don't "feel" bipolar and that's a good thing.

My children were home for the holidays and we hosted dinners for Christmas and New Years for both sides of our family. Surprisingly, everything went great. My son that is in the Air Force took vacation time and was at home for eleven days. Since my children live 3 hrs and 12 hrs away, we usually are only able to see our Airman son about twice per year. But thanks to the internet, we can talk to each other everyday if we want. Trillian is a great chat program since it combines all the major chat programs into one interface. I don't have to have multiple programs to talk to my family members anywhere in the great USA.

My goals for this year: lose another 20 pounds(lost 25 pounds in 2006), go down south and visit my son's Air force base, blog here more often and break my addiction.

Happy New Year to all.